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PAUL.  Good morning, Raj.

RAJ.   Yes. Good morning . . .

PAUL.   I’m interrupting you because the very way we’re beginning this conversation suggests there are two of us when it’s either me seeing clearly or me seeing through a glass darkly.  How can we continue acting as though there is a Raj and a Paul?

Okay. I (Paul) understand that questions are the leading edge of answers . . . and not the evidence of the existence of an ignorant questioner—a “self.”

RAJ.   Yes. A question is a heightened aliveness to an anticipated “something”—a sensing of movement of some sort—in the form of aroused attentiveness.

I am not talking about dread or doubt or pessimism. Those are forms of resistance, whereas being “alive” to something is an attitude of embrace without reservation.

You see?

You will notice that when you are confronted with need . . . which is the leading edge of “behold, I make all things new” . . . it is interpreted to be the need of an imaginary, irrelevant and non-existent “self,” leading one to conclusive “proof of guilt or responsibility.” And this is a complete distraction from what the need is actually the evidence of . . . which is the ever-NEW ever-original infinite Wholeness of Being!

You see!

Questions and needs are like the sun rising. The light begins to show at the horizon, and as it does, its rays begin to touch you standing in the dark. You might become infatuated with the sight of you and abandon the horizon, together with what lies just beyond it . . . which is what is actually coming into view.

You see?

It doesn’t matter what you look like. It doesn’t matter that there seems to be a “self.” What matters is that something out of sight is coming into view and showing you the more of Being than was seen before . . .

. . . AND THE LEARNING IS THAT
THAT IS WHAT YOU ARE!

It likewise means that I am not a “self” in my own right . . . whose beneficence you are so lucky to have gifted to you, because I am . . . unlike you and unlike any other . . . the Son of God!

No!

This you must see, or else our Brotherhood and that of all Mankind will forever be just coming into view, off in the distance, trapped at the horizon, while your attention hasn’t gotten beyond the end of the nose of this fascinating illusion of a “self.”

Can you dare to be the Knowing without being a “knower”? The Doing without being a “doer”? Can you dare to be as you are being at this very moment? Is there a “you” and “me”? No. Or is there just Knowing and Being and Doing?  The latter, of course. This is what Being is! This is what it’s all about.

I am aware that this is mind-boggling. But it is only because you are trying to “understand” what I’m saying, even though the experience at this moment is the one I am describing. “How,” you want to know, “do you translate this into every moment . . . especially since it is neglecting to “personalize” or turn everything into a “self”ish context.

I know! How do you NEGLECT on purpose? Well, such a task is something only a “self” would come up with. One of the main characteristics of the “self” is that it operates on the basis of “instructions,” “understandings” which can be logically arranged to arrive at a conclusion which demonstrates control . . . and therefore authority . . . and therefore actuality!

So, one must play a little game of Let’s Pretend.

Let’s pretend there is a you and me so that you can lean on me while you dare to let go of your personal authority—that which gives you the feeling of being actual—so that you can experience the fact that when you aren’t in charge, you still exist; that when you are not defended, you are still safe; that when you aren’t thinking, you are still conscious; and that your presence of mind is your identity and not the characteristics you have cultivated to present to the world.

I can’t do any of this for you. But in holding you firmly as you learn to lean into the horizon without tensing up with self-protection, you get the hang of it . . . the a-ha! of delight and the effortlessness of simply Be-ing. And then I can let you go.

Now, this is enough for tonight. Do not work this over in your mind. It’s all there . . . obviously! You do know it. Just be with it.

That’s it!

Rajpur
Kingston, Washington
May 11, 2024