A Gathering with Raj -  - Princeville, Hawaii - 1989

PAUL:  Okay, this is me, Paul.  He’s wanting me to share:  We had a workshop almost two years ago now in Orlando, Florida.  Two days before, three days before we were to catch the plane I got an abscessed tooth, and my jaw was out to here.  And I was in such discomfort, I mean I was about five feet from the phone, ready to reach for it to call a dentist to see if he could please meet me immediately and pull the tooth out. 

And Raj says, “Do a meditation.”  This is one of those time that I didn’t appreciate him.  So I went over to the couch and sat down right on the edge.  I mean I was that ready to go for the phone.  I was going to meditate, you know, not with much peace. 

Anyway I did do the meditation, and I did get centered.  And I only meditated for about ten minutes before all of the pain was gone, I mean I was completely free of pain.  Then I sat back in the couch, and I just stayed there.  I finally just laid down, I mean my face was still tight, but there was no pain.  And it was like a matter of a half an hour or forty minutes before it opened and drained.  And that was the end of it, and we were able to go on the trip.

But it was for me having come from a Christian Science metaphysical background, where you did metaphysical work for healing, to not go through a specific thought process to experience the healing, but to let go into my peace to get centered to experience healing was a pretty dramatic experience for me. 

And that was a situation where there seemed to be a great deal of urgency as far as I was concerned, because I wanted to be rid of the pain.  And it did not seem at all reasonable to think that I could meditate and become centered under those circumstances.  But I found a place where I was able to be willing to do it and that was my experience.

Afterwards then I asked him what was going on, and he pointed out to me that I had been angry with him for a number of days.  Because we were supposed to go and do two workshops and in one workshop we only had two people register, and then the other workshop we had fifteen people, which wouldn’t nearly cover the expense of the trip and lodging and so on.  And it was like my intelligence said, “don’t go on this trip, there’s nothing to justifying going, I mean it doesn’t express any common sense.” 

But Raj kept saying, “It is appropriate to go.  You’ll have thirty-five people at one, and you’ll have approximately twenty-five people at the other.”  And I’m saying, “it’s two days before we leave, if they were really interested they would have said something.”  And I was mad at him for putting me in what I felt was a vulnerable position. 

And so I could see that yes I was angry with him, and that the harboring of the anger is what had manifested this way.  And I was able to release all of that and we went and indeed there were thirty-five at one and twenty-five at the other. 

And so anyway he wanted that shared in light of the question and the answer that he had given.